Getting in the right mind set.

First off I have been thinking and trying to get back on the diet wagon...not the diet wagon, but back to the lifestyle change. I have so much to be thankful for and so much to live for. I know you can't say "It will not happen to me it only happens to other people". If I don't continue to make good lifestyle changes I will just continue back down the road I don't want to go. I did not weigh in today...I actually forgot but then it was too late as we had eaten breakfast. I wasn't really looking forward to it, so I gave myself the week off and will weigh in next sunday, and that is okay....
Pete and I have so many plans for our future. Our kids are raised and have dreams of their own. We have so much to live for and so much to do...I love you Pete and look forward to our next adventure. Your heart attack in February really brought to life a new perspective. We can do this together.

Mom...I miss you so much. Your strenght and determination have been such an example to all of us. If you can go through what you did with a smile on your face and say I am lucky, there are so many people out there worse off than me, if this is what God is going to give me then He will help me through it. I guess we all have our crosses to bear...thanks for teaching me by your wonderful example. I love you and you still give me inspiration. I know you are there cheering me on because you struggled with your weight your whole married life and you want more for your kids, grandkids and great-grandkids. Thanks mom I know you are there everyday!!

At the point of needing inspiration...

Okay, having a bad week.

I have not been motivated...don't really care what I eat and I am feeling it.

I actually feel like a big blob.

I have to get out of this slump.

It doesn't help being on your period, which I really don't need anymore!!

I am worried about weigh in tomorrow.

So......I found some pictures of little Layla

I think I might try her exercises,

if that doesn't work that little smile will.

Tomorrow is a new day, and I will be a new me!!!

Come on Layla, show granma how it is done.

I will do it for my family,

I want to live!!!!!!

I want my body back....

I weighed in on Monday instead of Sunday this week because I forgot...I really did forget. So anyway, I weighed in and I stayed exactly the same as I was the last week. I was a little disappointed because I didn't lose anything but then I realized at least I did not gain and I am still in the 150's. Yippy for me!!! Pete was gone all last week to the Police and Fire games in Idaho. So while he was gone I cleaned like a mad woman and painted my family room. (You can see it on my family blog) I was so sore from climbing the ladder and going up and down. I also vacumed the ceilings in the family room, kitchen, living room and hallway (they are the popcorn ceilings and I hate them). There is an arm workout for you.

When Pete got home we talked, we feel like with vacation and everything we have kind of gotten off our course of good habits, we weren't really bad but we have to get back on the band wagon and eat our fruits and vegetables again. We also decided everyone in our house has to work out at least 30 minutes a day, 3 days a week. If they want to do more that is fine. We are going to keep a log of it. So we will see what happens. Pete and I also talked about getting another trailer, we like to go camping and hiking so that is another goal we have set. I realize I will never have my high school body back, but it is inspiration...except the hair...so 80's. hahahaha.

Plus I am going to see Jen and Layla in less than a month while Jeremy is deployed. I know she is going to kick my ass....so I have to prepare for that. I went power walking yesterday for 45 minutes and I am so sore today. I feel like I need some joint juice. Man getting old sucks...your mind still feels young and your body is saying "sorry just can't do that anymore" well I am going to prove the old body wrong. The weight and exercise trial continues...

*EDIT...I forgot to add this...I hate that time of the month when you have the munchies soooo bad you feel like you could eat the doors of the cabinets. Why are woman cursed with that??? I do good the rest of the time and then a week before my period, BAM, I just want to eat everything. I have to get control of that...

HUH?

What the heck is going on? I worked out this week. I ran/walked with Matt and his friend Bruce. I painted my family room, which meant I had to move almost everything out of the family room into the living room, by myself mind you. I was so busy I didn't have time to eat. Maybe that is why I gained 1 pound. I didn't eat, I guess you have to eat or your body says I am not losing, she is not eating and I will starve. Like that would happen. Well, I was frustrated when I got on the scale and saw that I gained one stinken pound. Better luck next Sunday.

I ran...and walked...

Matt's friend Bruce came home from his summer job, he lost 25 pounds. Good for him but bad for us. We 3 decided to go for a run. I told them I walked and jogged. So off we went, Bruce kicked our butts. We ran down past the fire station and back. I will prepare and beat him soon. You with me Matt??

Wow, reading can do that...

Okay, so who knew that setting around reading 4 books could keep you so interested that you had no desire to eat...well these books did that to me.

I am still reading this one, about half way through...I am still not eating.
I did weigh in yesterday morning and to my surprise I lost 2 pounds.
I am 1 pound shy of where I was when I left on vacation.
Keep writing Stephenie Meyer, it keeps me too busy to eat.

I didn't want to do it...

Okay, I just got back from vacation....yea right. You know your diet goes to hell when you go on vacation. That is something I must work on. I figured I would give myself a week before I weighed in. Well, Pete decided he would weigh in, he was curious how bad he was. He weighed in and only gained 3 pounds. Wow, I am impressed. So when he went to the golf course this morning I decided what do I have to lose...hahaha besides some weight. So I got on the scale and was pleasantly surprised. I only gained 3 pounds as well. Wow, I was pretty excited with it being that time of the month as well. So I am still pretty motivated. I am worried that those roasted marshmallows are going to come back and haunt me though. I love roasting marshmallows.

So here we go again...I guess I need to not look at it as a diet but a healthy life style so we can move to St George. We have so much we want to do together. PJ you are my motivation.